Cold Night, Moon Light, Mello Night

During my junior year of college I started seeing a guy whom I believed I was going to marry. One night about four months in after a fantastic weekend he dropped me back off at the college and to my surprise had some awful things to say to me about my physical appearance. I should have known at that point that he was not the man for me, for what he brought up was completely vain and completely skewed based upon his past experiences. Although I was still quite young in my thinking and believed that it was ok for him to dump on Gods creation of myself. Later that night started months of unhealthy thinking, unhealthy eating habits and obsessive weighing.

Although I could write about it for hours and the pain it caused me I choose not to! Why? The Lord has faithfully been re-enforcing who I am in him. I am his beloved, his creation made in His image I know and trust that when God made me that to took the time to craft me according to His will and that when he saved me it was with the promise that he would make His name glorified based upon my living.

Father Lord, I pray that you continue to create in me a new heart, a restored beauty, and a new found love for myself. Lord, you know that plans that you have for me. I ask that you reveal your present plans for me so that glory may be given unto your name. Father send me out among your children and may I be a light for who you are! Lord, I ask that you convict the hearts of those who choose to wrong us as people and that their hearts are made new according to your will. Lord, for my sisters in you I ask you to bless them and protect them. Father, if there are scars in their lives Lord may you wash them away so that they know their beauty. That they know they are daughters of a mighty king. And that they will grow more in love with themselves because you love them!