Dormant

I was out tonight with some friends and the typical conversation tends to come back to dating in one way or another. Mainly because the majority of us are not dating... So there is the concept of a stealth date which is a date that know one knows about... which to me is dating but I guess there is a name for it. Anyway, I made the comment that "my dating life is dormant."

I dont think it is a bad thing to be dormant. But because of these dating conversations my wanting to date is higher. It seems like it is more of a necessity when in actuality it is not solely up to me who I marry, but it is up to God. Then why is there the need to date.... well the answer seems like an easy one... Marriage but that is not it. If God knew us before we were in the womb, and knows the numbers of our days before they are lived, if he knew that we would be his child, than it is not fair to doubt him by thinking he does not know who we are going to marry. I think discouragement sets in for me on three different levels: first I seem to have a lot of friends that are getting married or have married in the past few years and it makes me wonder what I am doing wrong. And secondly in this individualistic society I try to control my out come. And lastly I hate the guessing game but then again im too nervous to ask the hard questions I guess for rejection sake.

So the answers, well God is clear that He will provide for our needs. I am again thankful for my summer Bible study because it is all about Gods provision. Although each account is different but the ending is clearly the same Gods provision prevails, the most recent story is the one of Jacob. And in the end Jacob was trying to gain more sheep by practicing rituals to many Gods, but it was because of the One True God that his flock was increased and blessed. God has it planned out, and will bring everything to completion in his timing.

Lord, forgive me for trying to control things on my own. Lord forgive me for not trusting you in this one area of my life. Lord I know that you have someone out there for me who is everything that one can be, because you created us to become one to give you the Glory. Lord I pray that my life be a living example for you alone deserve all the glory. Lord I make my desires known to you and Lord I ask that you take those desires and have your way with them. Lord may you keep them and remove any distraction from me Lord. May I be distracted by you alone and if anything else is there Lord remove it because it is in your time that all things are beautiful...

Broken before you...